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He found me at the counter with my elbow on the edge and my shoulder up near my ear, a posture that would hurt tomorrow. The screen lit the bottom half of my face. He set a glass of water down next to my hand - just set it there, didn't say anything - went back down the hall. I looked at the water and then at the phone and then at the water again, and my jaw was sore in the hinge, the way it gets when I've been somewhere loud, except the kitchen was completely silent.
The phone rang and it was my sister's voice asking whether the thing in the Senate was going to pass or not, the way she'd ask whether it was going to rain. I opened my mouth and what came out was: *well - some people are saying* and then *but others point to* and then a sound like a drawer that won't close, and then nothing. The refrigerator clicked on. My sister said *so you don't actually know* and I looked down at my hand on the counter, the fingers loose and slightly open, not holding anything.
Seven Tabs, One Story - No Ground
I closed them left to right, six clicks, watching the bar at the top go thin and then thinner and then just the one tab, a white page with a serif font and her name in small letters at the top, someone I'd paid eight dollars for once and forgotten. The subject line said *Thursday* and the date was three weeks ago. Halfway down she was describing a parking lot in Akron - the way the light hit a puddle near the cart return, and something in my upper back let go of something it had been holding. I reached for the mug without looking and the ceramic was still warm against my palm, which was wrong by every calculation I'd done in my head about how long I'd been standing there. I read the parking lot sentence again.
Three weeks later he asked me over the chicken what I thought about the tariffs, the ones on the auto parts, and I said one sentence - something about a plant in Ohio that had already started cutting shifts - and then I turned the phone over on the table - screen side down, and it made a small flat sound against the wood. He looked at it. He looked at me. I picked up my fork and the tines scraped the plate and outside the window the neighbor's dog was barking at something in the dark, the way dogs do when they've actually found something and not just scared themselves, and I didn't reach for the phone to check what it might mean. We finished the chicken.
The Newsletter Nobody Opened
The folder opened and there were fourteen squares arranged in a grid, each one a different color - and I recognized all of them the way you recognize faces at a reunion - the blue bird, the red circle with the white F, the orange flame that was supposed to mean something urgent. My thumb hovered. I moved the red circle to a different page, then the orange flame, the way I'd moved the furniture in my first apartment three times in one month before I understood it wasn't the furniture. Two of the squares I didn't recognize at all - something with a globe - something with a letter in a serif font - and I couldn't remember downloading them or why, only that there must have been a moment when I'd thought they would help. I put them in the folder labeled *later* and closed it and the screen went back to the wallpaper, which was a photograph of a lake I'd never been to, and I stood there looking at it for a moment before I put the phone face-down next to the sink.
The notepad on the nightstand had a week of handwriting on it, most of it crossed out - things I'd written down to look up later - and then looked up, and then written down again because I hadn't kept any of it. I found the pen under the pillow at two in the morning and lay there with it in my fist, the cap still on. Somewhere in the house the laptop was making a small fan sound from under the pottery book, cycling through something I hadn't asked it to do. I pressed the pen against the pad hard enough to leave a dent but didn't write anything, just the dent - and after a while I set it on the nightstand and put my hand flat on the mattress beside me and the mattress was still.
The library slip was tucked inside the pottery book, a pale yellow rectangle with the due date stamped in red ink, and I carried it to the kitchen and stood at the counter reading the date the way I used to read headlines - twice, fast, then again slower - as if the numbers might change. They didn't change. I set it next to the kettle and washed one dish and dried it and put it away and came back and the slip was still there, still that date, still that red. My hands knew where the phone was without my having to think about it, the way a tongue finds a sore tooth, but I filled the kettle instead and listened to the water go in - the pitch rising as it climbed, until the sound changed and I turned it off. I left the slip on the counter and went down the hall and the floor was cold through my socks and I got into bed before eight, which I hadn't done since I was sick, and I wasn't sick.
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