The Slack notification was from Derek and said *per my last email* and she typed *got it* without opening the thread. The search bar still had the cursor blinking inside the word *quiet*. She clicked the first cabin - cedar walls, a dock, a canoe nobody was using - and added it to her cart the same way she'd add a conference room to her calendar, two thumbs moving fast on the phone she'd switched to without noticing she'd picked it up.
The tote bag slid into the footwell somewhere past the second toll plaza and she didn't reach back to straighten it. The paperback was from an airport in March, its cover still showing the price in euros. A podcast started without her choosing it - something about productivity - and she let it run for forty minutes before she found the button.
The fire was already laid but not lit - three birch logs stacked in an X above a fat knot of newspaper she recognized as last Tuesday's. She set her keys on the windowsill and they slid against the glass and stopped. Outside, the canoe was pulled up on the bank exactly where it had been in the photograph, the same yellow rope looped around the same grey dock cleat, and she had the strange feeling of having arrived somewhere she'd already left.
The coffee mug left a ring on the railing that she pressed her thumb into without looking down. A heron stood in the shallows with the patience of something that had never heard of an all-hands, one grey leg lifted - and she watched it until the cursor in the agenda document started blinking the way the search bar had. She typed *objectives* and then *key outcomes* and then sat with her hands in her lap while the lake turned the color of a legal pad. The heron didn't move and she didn't close the laptop and the agenda had four words on it when the battery icon turned yellow.
She zipped the duffel at six-forty, a full hour before checkout, and the paperback rode home the same way it had ridden out, spine unbroken, its euro price still facing up. The cedar smell had gotten into her fleece and she rolled the window down to let it out. Past the second toll plaza she was already speaking the agenda aloud to the windshield - her voice finding the rhythm it used on muted calls, and the lake, when she thought of it at all, had gone the same flat blue as the icon on her phone's lock screen.
She found it while she was looking for her badge - a folded square, cream paper - someone's careful pen tracing the ridge trail up to the overlook, the word *hemlock* written in small letters beside a drawing of a tree. She set it on the table next to the laptop, which was already open, which was already casting its rectangle of white light across the wood grain. The brochure had a small pine cone printed in the corner, the kind of logo a person drew at a kitchen table in winter - and it lay there smoothed flat under two fingers she'd stopped pressing down on some minutes ago.
She pinned the trail map above the monitor with a thumbtack pulled from someone's birthday card, and it hung there three days between the Q3 projections and a Post-it that said *call dentist*, the little hemlock tree tilted slightly left because the wall had a soft spot near the baseboard that she'd never had fixed. On the fourth day Derek forwarded a thread with *see below* and she reached up without looking and used the map to blot a coffee drip off the edge of her mug. It left a brown half-moon across the ridge trail, right at the elevation line, and she folded it back into its square and set it on top of the recycling bin - which was already full, which she also hadn't taken out.
She booked the same cabin again in October, a different Thursday, the same photograph of the yellow rope and the grey cleat, and the confirmation email arrived while she was on the all-hands and she clicked *accept* on both at once.
She packed the laptop in the outside pocket this time - the one with the easy zipper, where she used to keep the things she needed fast.
The birch logs were stacked in the same X and she lit them on the first match and watched them take and then pulled up the agenda before the first log had fully caught, the screen bright against the new dark and the fire both.
A moth came in through the gap where the screen door didn't quite meet the frame and orbited the laptop twice before landing on the *D* key, its wings moving the way a cursor blinks.
She didn't notice it until she'd already typed through it, and by then it was gone - and the word on the screen was *deliverables*.
The dock had a loose board she'd noticed in October and she stepped around it the same way both times, muscle memory from a place she'd visited twice, and stood at the end where the yellow rope was coiled now, the canoe finally on the water, nobody having asked her how it got there.
She had her phone out to photograph the heron - a different heron - or the same one, she had no way to know - and when she raised it the screen showed her calendar, which she'd opened somewhere between the toll plaza and the gravel drive, two red dots sitting on Wednesday like a pair of eyes.
The canoe rocked once when she stepped in and she grabbed both gunwales and her phone went face-down in the bow and the calendar went dark and the lake held her there, rocking - three inches of cold black water between her and whatever was below, and she didn't reach for the phone.
She reached for it on the second stroke of the paddle.
The paddle dripped across her knee when she lifted it and she watched the drops darken the fabric in a line, four drops, five, before she noticed she was counting them the way she counted agenda items. On the far bank a branch had fallen into the water and the current had turned it so its broken end faced upstream - white wood showing, and she paddled toward it for no reason she could have named and then stopped six feet short and sat. The phone screen had gone dark in the bow, its black face reflecting a strip of cloud, and she left it there and listened to the lake make the small sound it made against the hull, which wasn't a word - which required nothing from her, which she hadn't budgeted time for.
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