The coins came out of the bottom of her bag in stages - a warm penny, two dimes filmed with lint, a quarter that had been there since before she moved apartments. The woman at the till watched without watching, the way cashiers do. Nadia smoothed the paper bag flat against her hip before she carried it out. On the bus home she kept it on her lap instead of the floor.
The mustard trousers caught the fluorescent light in a way that made them look almost alive. Derek stopped mid-sentence about the Henderson file and his eyes went to her hip pocket and then back to his own desk and he picked up his pen. Nadia stood at the copier for eleven minutes - longer than anything required, feeding the same stack twice. She ate her sandwich at her desk with the drawer open, the paper bag from Saturday folded inside it, not looking at it exactly but knowing where it was.
The woman had a scarf the color of a blood orange and she said, nice suit - just like that, the way you'd say it about weather or a good meal. Nadia looked down at her own shoulder, the lapel, the particular green of it, as if she needed to confirm. She had been in the middle of something - her hands still open - one heel lifted off the floor from leaning into a point she'd been making to nobody, to the closed aluminum doors. The scarf woman smiled and looked back at her phone. The lift opened and Nadia stepped out and her heel came down and she thought: I was talking.
The Suit on the Wire Hanger
The drive took forty minutes and she kept both hands on the wheel, the jacket's third button catching the seatbelt wrong the whole way. Her mother opened the door before she knocked and said, come in, come in - the pot's on, and turned back toward the kitchen. The cardigan was the color of oatmeal and it was already on the sofa arm, folded, waiting, the way things wait when someone has thought about them in advance. Her mother said - I brought you something warmer, and looked at the stove. Nadia picked it up and put it on over the jacket and sat down at the table where she had done her homework for twelve years, the cardigan's hem covering the green lapel entirely, and her mother set down the cups.
The bathroom tiles were cold through her socks. She peeled the cardigan off one sleeve at a time and set it on the sink's edge, oatmeal against white porcelain - and it sat there very neatly. The mirror gave back the green lapel, the mustard, the third button she had never once thought about until today. She ran the tap and didn't use it. When she came back through the kitchen doorway her mother was already looking at the door and not the stove, and Nadia pulled out her chair and sat down.
The cardigan had been on the passenger seat since November, folded into itself - the oatmeal color gone slightly gray in the winter light. She locked the car and left it there. The office door gave back her reflection in one dark pane - the green lapel, the mustard, the third button - and she pushed through it without breaking stride, her bag swinging forward from her shoulder as she turned toward the stairs. Derek was already talking about something, the Henderson file or the one after it - and she set her coffee down and found her pen.
Priya's wedding invitation had said cocktail attire and Nadia had stood in front of the open wardrobe for a long time, her hand resting on the sleeve of a black dress she hadn't worn since her uncle's retirement dinner. She wore the green jacket anyway, with the wide trousers that had the slight drag at the hem, and when she got to the venue Priya grabbed both her hands and said, you look like yourself - which was a strange thing to say, and Nadia didn't know what to do with it until she was already at the bar. Priya's mother passed twice and both times her eyes went to the lapel and away, the way Derek's had gone to the hip pocket, and Nadia reached for the cocktail napkin and straightened it against the wood. Later, in the photograph Priya sent at midnight - the whole table - heads together, someone's glass raised - Nadia was the one leaning in, her shoulder forward, the jacket open, talking. She looked at it for a while before she put her phone down.
The Cardigan on the Sink
Her niece - seven years old, pulled at the hem of the green jacket and said, I want one like that, and Nadia's sister looked up from the stroller with an expression that had several layers to it, the top one being a smile. The niece's fingers were sticky from the market samples and left a small print near the second button - and Nadia looked down at it and didn't move away. Her sister said, it's a lot of jacket for a Saturday, and adjusted the stroller's sun hood, and her hands stayed busy with it for longer than the hood required. The niece let go and ran ahead toward the bread stand and Nadia watched her go, the small print drying on the lapel - and didn't take the jacket off.
The dry cleaner had a ticket system, yellow carbons, and the man behind the counter held the jacket at arm's length under the fluorescent strip and said, the lining here, and touched the seam where the third button's thread had frayed. He said - we can replace the lining entirely, cream or ivory, your preference, and Nadia said, whatever you'd recommend - and then stopped and said, actually, green, if you have it, close to this. He wrote it on the ticket without looking up. She walked out with the carbon copy folded in her fist and the hanger empty over her arm - the hook swinging, and the cold came through her shirt in a way she noticed on the third block and not the first.
The green lining came back two shades darker than the original, closer to bottle glass, and the man at the counter said, closest we had - and watched her face. Nadia ran her thumb along the inside seam where the new thread began and said, it's better, which surprised her while she was saying it. On the train home a woman across the aisle kept looking at the jacket's open front, the flash of darker green each time Nadia reached for her bag, and finally said something to the man beside her - too low to hear, and he looked too. Nadia didn't cross her arms or button the jacket or shift the bag to cover anything, and she noticed this only when she was already on the platform, the train pulling out, her reflection sliding away in the dark window.
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